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The Big Bus Catastrophe (BBC) 1/12/25

Today for some reason 2 of the buses combined and one of them was mine.

Ts was a CATASTROPHY. More than half of the bus had 6 people in a row (3 people per seat) and there were apparently 65 people on ts bus????? How does that even happen.

At one point I thought I was doomed to ts BBL (Big Bus Lifestyle) but then one stop was transferred to another bus and like half of the bus was gone??? But then they stopped at ts stop and like lowkey the stop was near my sister's school so I thought I could meet her but I was like 30 minutes late so I did allat for nothing.

Anyway, in history we watched a documentary about Xi Jinping and it's HELLA interesting. Here's the link:

Sleepovah 1/11/25

Last night I had a sleepover with my friends. Pretty chill, pretty chill.

To catch you up, I have done the following:

• Finished Omori
• Watched 50 Shades of Grey
• Started (yet another) website

And prolly some more stuff i forgot

I was driving back from ts sleepover and everything was so, like, clear. like I could see. Like, it was crisp outside to my eyes.

Okay I sound crazy just ignore I said ts.

Doing Nothing 1/9/25

I've posted a bulletin every day this year. Cray!

Anyway, bulletin I posted about my vocal stims:

So yeah im DEF missing a lot but whatevs.

It was pink outside a while ago... cuz the sun was reflecting pink on the clouds and the clouds reflected into the sky and the sky reflected everywhere so everywhere was pink! It was cool cuz our green plants were like REALLY green and cool looking compared to the pink of outside... and like idk i really like colors. ts is kinda why i like Saw.

I've been so cooked today. I've forgotten like everything I was gonna say and ts happened RIGHT now.

I like people with weird interests. Like anime geeks obsessed with cars and science nerds who are obsessed with a certain band. idk. I just find ts really interesting.

Made another collage. Look up and to the left :P

Communism and Fascism 1/8/25

We're learning about communism and fascism in world geo and at first I was like "oh good lord here it comes" but honestly ts is REALLY interesting. Lowkey makes me wanna read the Communist Manifesto...

Anyway, idrk what to put in this blog. I've been wanting to make a collage and im THISS close to being done with the 6/7th (we left ts in 2025 zip it) video of the Omori gameplay but the last episode is 5 FUCKING HOURS LONG so it might take a while... but all I've heard about Omori is that the ending is the best part so imma just have to thug it out.

We started watching Sinister in Horror Movie Club (GEEK! GEEK! they shout at me. i can't avoid their screams but i don't have to listen to them either) and my slatt JAMES RANSONE was in it!!! I knew that before (check the collage a bit down) but when he came on the screen so did I!!!

I don't mean that. What I meant was: when I saw his face projected on the white screen I lit up inside and I couldn't hide a smile. :).

Anyway. I don't wanna start ts last episode of Omori (I just started ts) so imma just leave ig??? idk l8r t8rs

Working on Blog 1/7/25

Just posted a bulletin on SpaceHey ranting about my friend so imma post it here:

So yeah. Here's what the blog looks like rn before I work on it:

BLOG DONE AND READY TO POST ONLINE!!!!

I think neocities is infinitely harder to work with than whatever stuff I'm using rn but whatever cuz ts is finally paying off I think!!!

Another Hideous Collage 1/6/25

Made ts for my SpaceHey pfp. Hasn't been updated yet but whatevs. I tried to make it as ugly as my James Ransone thing and I think I succeeded? idk.

Imma explain some of ts and then go take a shower:

• big right: blackberry from watership down (look familiar?)
• top left: peter strahm from saw iv/v (ts pic is from iv im pretty sure)
• bottom left: basic ahh leopard print
• bottom left movie: Saw V (hoffman's sister's death)
• behind strahm are my other fave characters: John from Elephant (2003), Sharona from Monk, Henry Bowers from It, and Piglet from Winnie the Pooh (along w others not in collage)
• the weird lanky thing to the right of blackberry is a Spacer from All Tomorrows
• red text to the left of blackberry is a quote from watership down, and red text to the right is a quote from frankenstein
• very top left r ao3 tag things from random fics ive read

check out my idea for a plot called "the warper":

Snakeophobia 1/5/25

I have a big fear of snakes yet i love the way they look... like I hate the way they slither but I like their "aesthetic", if you catch my drift.

Anyway, made this to the left. I wanna add more but for now this is it. Took me like an hour just to put some dots on a thing :,( But also its of Adam and Lawrence!!! I lobe them.

Anyway, I have to make a collage for my SpaceHey pfp but idk what to add to it yet so I have to brainstorm that...

Anyway, told K I would call him like 3 hours ago... guess I should get on with ts. L8r T8rs!!!

School tomorrow. EWWWW

Also for the collage ts says "doomed yaoi" so yeah blehjhhh idk i just have to say stuff because if you hover on ts then the "feeling better" header will be all messed up so yeah kthxbyeeee.

Feeling Better 1/4/26

Gonna have to work out then shower then return my pants from the mall then hangout w friends but before that imma explain my day so far ig.

So it's like 70 degrees for some reason again even though it was like 40 degrees last week... idk anyway I went on a jog and I was listening to my sad emo 2000's playlist (look above; sorry if ts doesnt work) and I was feeling better for some reason (feining to watch Ken Park for some reason but better nonetheless) and then now im like sad-ish again cuz i just depressed myself.

Anyway, I hope my It phase is going away. I think it might be. Cuz the fandom is young(er) and lowk not funny at all, and idk it reminds me too much of my 6th grade self (shivers intensly) and the James Ransone thing might just make me give up on this It thing.

Idk. That's lowkey it. I haven't worked on ts since the last progress photo and I want to get ts published online lowkey soon but whatever.

Anyway. Gonna work out then shower and then maybe come back and work on ts blog a little it n get it ready for publication so yeah. ttyl!!!

At first I wanted to watch Ken Park to honor James Ransone's legacy but after watching a video of the overview of the movie I'm not really sure that's what he wanted so uh yeah NOT gonna do ts I fear...

Lockhart 1/3/25

I bet you can guess what happened today but I went to Lockhart (Texas) today to eat barbeque bc it's my cousins last day on vacay here so we decided to celebrate.

Since there isn't much to do in Lockhart, we ate some bussin barbeque, looked at a lot of art (see right for my fave), and went to a farmer's market and bought some honey.

Anyway, on video 2 of the Omori gameplay and it's really boring so far. But my friend said that the ending was all worth it so hurrah!

Also my daily It rant was posted in my spacehey bulletins today so here you go:

Also, while I was getting my piercings I fainted. yuck. It was cuz i get queezy when I look at needles (ie shots and piercings and such) and cuz i didn't eat much that whole day and the piercing was at like 6. I felt terrible after but then I ate 1.5 cheeseburgers n i was fine.

I might be a cooked doomed yaoi freak. I mean, It and Saw? Cooked!!!

I was celebrating the last day of school and worrying about my biology final when James Ransone killed himself. Guess some people's worries are bigger than others.

I'm working on a James Ransone collage but im watching Omori gameplay rn and Basil just went to the bathroom and now I'm not feeling too good anymore.

I made a crappy James Ransone collage because I don't even know what to do with this feeling i have right now.

Gonna see the new Anaconda movie! ttyl gangsters.

Back. Anaconda (2025/26): 7/10. Enjoyable. Not good, by any means, but definitely enjoyable i think! I haven't seen the original so there were prolly jokes I didn't get but like I felt like I understood the whole very well. Had some laughs... Had some scares... Fun had by all!

Posted a bulletin tonight. Here it is:

Omori 1/2/26

I conviced K to watch It and It Chapter 2 (i prolly alr said this but whatever) so now he's making me watch Omori gameplay since I don't have Steam and I'm starting it today. I have a lot to do today so I might not get very far but it smth happens then I'm go here asap!

I'm getting my ears pierced today! Just my basic first lobes cuz i was tryna be different when I was little and haven't gotten them pierced yet.

New Years! 1/1/26

It's the start of a new year! Everyone I know has been saying how 2025 sucked so hard but I lowkey didn't experience ts so I hope ts doesn't come and bite me in the butt.

Anyway, I worked on ts yesterday. Here's a progress photo:

Also, I'm in a pickle!

This guy likes me, let's name him K, and he's texting me every day and has called me two days in a row. I know he likes me from multiple accounts, but he hasn't told me himself.

And I'm in a pickle because I don't like him back. :(. I mean, I like him a lot, as a friend. He's really funny and nice company so I kinda like him texting me everyday. Mostly because nobody's actually done that for me before so I feel kinda special :)

But anyway, I like when he texts me and I really like to talk with him, but I'm afraid that he'll mistake that for me liking him and then when he asks and I say no he's never gonna talk to me again :(. I really dont want that to happen cuz I really do like him a lot. Not like that but whatever.

Cuz if I like someone and I called and texted him all the time and I drop that I like him and he says no I would be lowkey confused. I mean, I wouldn't be mad cuz I'm not that kind of person but I understand how someone else might be.

If you're reading ts you're probably thinking ts is boring and like "bro what r u talking about that happens to people all the time" but this is the first time that something like ts has happened to me so idk what to do or how to respond. Bc I like talking to him and I like calling him but I don't want him to think that's because I like him because I do but not as anything more than friends.

Ts stinks.

On the good side, I convinced him to watch It and It Chapter 2 so I can yap to somebody about ts! And trust me I have. And he told me to play Omori and since I made him watch ts I should prolly do that. But I don't have Steam so imma watch a gameplay but in total it's like 3 billion hours long so my goal is to finish it by the time winter break is over (1/7? I think?).

Commitment 12/31/25

Happy New Years Eve!

Sorry for the corny title but i didn't know what to call it so here we are.

Anyway, I have yet another idea for a website. However, ts is bummy because I literally have like 30 billion other projects to work on, including ts blog, so I just wanna be able to commit to one thing but I haven't been able to do ts yet.

Anyway, ts is leading up to me announcing that I'm going to try to finish ts blog by the end of winter break. For reference, ts looks the same as the last progress photo rn.

So anyway, I need to finish the top thing, whatever imma put there, and then imma do a thing on the right side where I put a photo there and everytime you refresh the page a new photo pops up, like catbox.moe or yyyyyy.info, even though I'm pretty sure ts isn't up anymore but whatever.

It Chapter 2 12/30/25

I finished It Chapter 2 last night and it is officially the second movie I've ever cried about (after Mysterious Skin).

There's gonna be hella spoilers so imma make a spoiler-less version and then have one with spoilers:

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Anyway, ts was my daily rant. l8r t8rs.

Sorry for being an opp 12/29/25

I was at my Grandparents' house all of last week and they live in the middle of nowhere in Wisconsin so I couldn't work on ts :( but my Christmas was really fun n I'm glad I went so yay!

Uh anyway ts is not up yet but i lowkey dont wanna work on it but i lowkey dunno what else to do so I might just end up doing ts.

My blogging page is NOT up 12/22/25

Never got to finish my thought.

My blogging page is NOT up and i am truly sorry for lying. I'm trying to do ts rn and I'll try to lock in on that today.

However, the right side of the blog is empty and idk what to put there OR on the little space at the top. So it might be delayed for a bit.

Okay ts is tmi but idc but I literally just bled through my tampon???? but then when I pulled ts out it wasnt completely soaked so whats even happening. I replaced ts w a pad bc they're way more comfy and I have no reason to go outside for the rest of the day so yeah.

Also, I rediscovered a band that I like a couple songs of; Motionless in White. Some of my faves are Another Life, Cause of Death, and Thoughts and Prayers. I'll link them to the above ts rn.

ikik what ur thinking; "rlp ts is corny ash" well yeah but i dont care bc yall are reading about MY life so i could care less abt what yall think

Every time i hear ts song it reminds me of Martyrs.

Bro that movie is actually soooooo good omfg i watched a video about a guy watching most of the movies on the disturbing movie iceburg and he claims that Marytrs is the worst movie on tier three?????? what. I mean I havent seen the rest of the movies but from what I remember in Yearbook class in eighth grade, that movie was actually REALLY good. idk tho.

Anyway, I gotta work on the right side of the thing for the rest of the time i have today. l8r t8rs

Progress photo!

My blogging page is up! 12/21/25

I currently have a youtube video about my own class that I recorded bc im tryna make a favoraties playlist but all the videos are 20 minutes+ long, my coding software, and my blog open. See photo to right.

I'll upload this to Neocities when

I Love Today 12/20/25

It's my Dad's birthday so I had a sleepover at my friend's house last night (it was hype -- we went to play broomball and watched 50 shades of grey) and I got picked up when everyone was basically asleep so the day started out great... and then we went on a bike ride which usually suck but today it was SO nice outside (like 74 degrees fahrenheit) ESPECIALLY for winter so it was sooo nice.

I also usually have this form of seasonal depression that pops up around this time... idk why but when the weather is nice like this and it feels like fall for some reason my brain makes me think about all the things I missed out on and what i could be doing now. It happened today, but for some reason it was less depressing? It was more, like, looking forward for what I could do in the future than what I'm missing out on.

I don't even know why. Maybe I'm maturing and realizing all these things that I want to do are possible now? Idk.

Anyway, I just helped my dad put the lights on our trees and ts looks super duper tuff (well not really but whatever) and the weather outside is so nice and the opposite state of my seasonal depression just made me enter a flow state.

Also my sister and my mom are cleaning out our house n now theres junk everywhere but I kinda like it? idrk why.

Also we're gonna eat at one of my dad's favorite restaurants, which just so happens to be MY fave restaurant too so im hypeeeee.

So far today has been good. idrk what stood out about it besides the first day of winter break. No homework, which is a BIG change from finals week last week... Every now and then I think to myself I should study for bio... everyone's been saying it's hard, forgetting I took it literally yesterday.

I saw this online blog a while ago, called Jojo's blog and I lowkey wanna make a blog like that one. Cuz this blog is nice but I like that one a little more. It actually reminds me of a blog, not just like somebody typing random stuff based on a topic.

I'll work on that today. Feining for some 2000's nature today... I think that'll be nice.

Ranting About my Huzz 12/13/25

I'm supposed to be studying rn but imma just rant cuz i needa get smth offa my head.

I have this huzz whose fake name alternates between "silver" and "aluminium" so imma just go w "huzz" for now.

He's blonde w light brown roots n BEAUTIFUL green eyes n is only a couple inches taller than me but im ok with that :) n also he does swim and has an upturned nose n freckles n his face and ears are always flushed :) he also smiles all the time and is not a bum and is funny and listens to Guns n Roses!!! :)))

However, he has a twin brother who's REALLY annoying and my classmates are shipping me with HIM instead :( and also huzz might be a huge nerd and says corny things sometimes but dont we all. and also im pretty sure he doesn't like me back, even though he smiles when I talk but he does that to everyone (besides his brother, respectfully), and although I get all these butterflies it's the same for everyone else, so idk.

I'm pretty sure he liked someone else :( and also he texts like a grandpa :( and also he mighttt be gay but i dont really think so considering how many gay jokes his brother makes... that would be awkward.

Idk. I like him a lot. he's really sweet. But do I really like him more than a friend???

I mean I think so????? I have tons of other guy friends but he lowkey sticks out. I like him. Well, I definitely like him, but idk if I like-like him. I probably do. Idk.

Also I dont wanna sound annoying, but I'm lowkey a loser. I don't really stick out much and there are like thirty billion trillion other girls he would probably choose before me. Idk. We talk every day though? but he does that with everyone else, too.

I hope none of what I say is true. I hope he likes me back. But idk bc there's a good chance that all I just said IS true. So idk.

I'm not much of a catch. At my age, guys r looking for boobs and I have basically none. I have a big nose n thats about it. my friends are gorgeous and they get whoever they want, but me being around them makes me feel worse about myself because compared to them im uuuuugly capital U-G-L-Y.

Idk. I hope he likes me. I hope what I just said is false.

idk.

He said he liked the way I said "nevermind, nevermind" after I make a reference to something and nobody understands. I remember that.

Crazy People 12/8/25

Watching things on crazy people online makes me realize that I'm not actually that crazy.

There was a thing I just watched where this girl with infertility found out her boyfriend's ex was having twins and literally started posting about gender reveal parties where the ex wasn't even invited, assuming that she would have the twins because they were the boyfriend's kids and she was his new girlfriend.

That shouldn't be the thing that makes me realize this, but I realize that most people's crazy isn't actually as crazy as a lot of people's. People put up with a lot of shit n it doesn't really matter how crazy you are, there will always be a couple people there for you who might not understand, but are willing to accept you.

The more I think about it the more examples I can name. The one cannibal who found his victim via Cannibal Forum, the Academy Killers or whoever they are.

Idk. Just thought of that.

Superbad.com 11/30/25

For some reason I was on superbad.com n then i was on the stars page n i found the following codes:

So yeah. I also might just put superbad.com in the rabbit holes section cuz I've lowkey explored it for a while n ive visited every single page on the website so yeah.

IT Phase 11/29/25

I alr yapped a bunch on my spacehey bulletin so imma just copy-paste here:

But basically if u didnt wanna read that, I think my IT phase is having a slight comeback after 4 years of haitus. idrk why bc it stopped being a phase for a reason.

It started back a while ago when i randomly had a fic idea for IT. i pushed it away and then like 2 days ago it came back and i went on ao3 and read all of these reddie n stenbrough fics n now im cooked.

More things about my IT phase that i feel like i should address:

• Henry Bowers (2017) is lowkey fine (GUYS HEAR ME OUT PLEASEEE)
• Stanley is the best character (rip) n the close second is Richie n then Bev Ben n Mike all share third
• Mike is also fine lowkey
• Ships: Reddie, Stenbrough, Benverly
• However there was a Mike x Stan part of my life... i dont wanna talk abt that i fear.
• And also i like Stan x Patty or whatever his wife's name is
• I had a big fat crush on Bev and i think that's gone now?
• Also Patrick is lowkey fine but not really well maybe idk

So yeah. Just thinking abt that.

Thanksgiving Aftermath 11/28/25

Happy Black Friday ig.

Anyway, Thanksgiving this year went as follows: 1) I went to my cousins/great-cousins 30 minutes away who i have seen probably twice before in my life when i was like 6 or 7 years old, and 2) hanging out for 4 hours after that at a neighborhood friend's (also my sister's best friend's) house and chatting near their fire until midnight.

It was a little different from our usual plans, since we usually just go to my grandma's house but SHE wanted us to go to our cousins' house and it was fine ig. Lowkey really awkward since they all new each other so it was basically just me and my sister. But the food was bussin so what can i say.

Also, the hangout afterwards was 100% less awkward but the family who's house we went to, the parents were friends with my parents and the youngest was friends with my sister, so i and the other brother were stuck sitting with the parents and listening to their stories. Which was fine ig but like would rather be on Roblox.

Anyway, overall this Thanksgiving wasn't all that bad! I thought my cousins were gonna be trumpies but they weren't I don't think so yay!

But yeah. Overall pretty okay Thanksgiving. However, I am writing this drinking tea because my stomach is about to pop. Def worth it tho.

HPI Progress 2 + just ranting 11/26/25

Hello Poison Ivy is up! It's in the "other projects" page but here's the link to it too: https://rats-are-pretty-coolio.neocities.org/hellopoisonivy. you should visit it! tons of fun kind of cuz im not done with it yet.

I realize that I blogged on HPI without blogging here too and I realize that HPI is lowkey really tuff. Its annoying that I have to edit it so much cuz like for the best rabbit webpage i can just type some things and tadaa but for HPI i have to spin the spinner wheel for every paragraph i write and its sooo annoying lowkey.

But there's also a lot of opportunity, ig. I feel like I can put anything anywhere and it'll sorta be in place.

Anyway. I'm stuck between blogging via HPI, here, or my SpaceHey blog. I'll focus on this one first, to describe how my days' are going to a wall ig, but then my SpaceHey one for like topics that I want answers from or people to see. And then if I'll finish HPI maybe I'll blog there too idk.

Anyway, tomorrow's Thanksgiving!!! Honestly idrc about thanksgiving much but i LOVE the food. but this year we're going to my second-cousins (or smth i cant remember) house and they're all trumpies and i know NONE of them so idk how this is gonna turn out.

Oh well. Wish me luck!!!

Hello Poison Ivy progress 11/9/25

If you haven't yet visited my "Other Projects" page then go do that but basically there's a project im in the works of rn called Hello Poison Ivy. This is what it looks like so far. I'm just at a loss for what I should add.

Well, this is what I do know:

• More random GIFs
• More font sizes/colors
• More ugly fonts
• More ugly backgrounds
• More random topics

And so on and so forth. But before I do any of that I have to work on what you look at when you click the link, which should be the main thing you look at when you log on. This is very important, since it sets the tone for the rest of the website, so it has to be crazier and weirder than the rest of it.

Mysterious Skin (2004) 11/4/25

I realize i haven't blogged on this this like ever because for the most part I only blog on my spacehey. but i decided to blog today because I watched Mysterious Skin this morning and yall can NOT believe the chokehold that the ending scene has on me.

I don't wanna be a spoiler in case yall wanna watch it but the last scene the 2 characters finally find each other and Neil shares the story and then the VERY END when the carolers are carolling and it zooms out on the couch and Neil was voicing over yall imma just quote it yall oh my GOD.

I wanted to tell Brian it was over now and everything would be okay. But that was a lie... I wish there was some way for us to go back and undo the past. But there wasn't. There was nothing we could do. So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically communicate... how sorry I was about what had happened. And I thought of all the grief and sadness... and fucked up suffering in the world... and it made me want to escape. I wished with all my heart that we could just... leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically... disappear.

yall OH MY GOD. OH MY GODDDDDDDDD

this was actually the most devastating moment of my whole being. Because now Brian KNOWS and he cant do anything to change that. "I wanna dream about something else for a change" like OH MY GOD. AND THEN THE CAROLERS AND THEYRE CAROLING AND IT ZOOMS OUT FROM THE COUCH AND OH MY GOD.

this also maybe me realize something that may sound a lil bit silly at first, but like this made me realize that once something happens, there is actually no way for you to forget it. it's going to be with you until you die. until you become angels in the night and magically disappear. and even though its over and even though the monster's gone the memories will still be embedded in your mind FOREVER and you cant do anything about it.

okay yeah the movie might be hella freaky and weird but the message is unbelievably important and VERY VERY well stated. It definitely made me realize a lot about abuse and what it puts a person through.

wow. i think imma have to sit this one out because oh my GOD.

Overall: 9/10. ik i just glazed it a lot bc the message was SO GOOD but while you're actually watching it you have to fast-forward a couple times cuz ts is actually hella freaky. Think of it like type 2 fun. while you're watching, it's hella freaky and weird, but when you finish it you're like "woah" and then you spend the rest of your day thinking about it.

So yeah. really good. definitely watch. just not with family (or even friends, unless they really really like you).

Hey Gang 10/20/25

Just checking in. I'm in the i-wanna-type-on-my-computer type of mood.

I was searching on Exit Mundi and idk what i was expecting but ts is actually pretty depressing. "Yo rlp wdym its LITERALLY about different ways that the world is going to end" shhh

I'm thinking that for my next project imma fix my Saw Yappage. It's way back from like when i was JUST starting to code and yeah I changed it a little but it still looks like i am testing things out in a book and putting them in a website.

Actually, now that i think about that, that's like my second website ive ever made ever. crazy.

Anyway, I wanna work on that. I've been trying to gather inspo but like the more i do that the more i dont wanna code bc i realize how much better everything looks from the stuff i make and i realize alongside it that i actually am not a w coder and for the most part idk what im doing.