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Mysterious Skin (2004) 11/4/25

I realize i haven't blogged on this this like ever because for the most part I only blog on my spacehey. but i decided to blog today because I watched Mysterious Skin this morning and yall can NOT believe the chokehold that the ending scene has on me.

I don't wanna be a spoiler in case yall wanna watch it but the last scene the 2 characters finally find each other and Neil shares the story and then the VERY END when the carolers are carolling and it zooms out on the couch and Neil was voicing over yall imma just quote it yall oh my GOD.

I wanted to tell Brian it was over now and everything would be okay. But that was a lie... I wish there was some way for us to go back and undo the past. But there wasn't. There was nothing we could do. So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically communicate... how sorry I was about what had happened. And I thought of all the grief and sadness... and fucked up suffering in the world... and it made me want to escape. I wished with all my heart that we could just... leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically... disappear.

yall OH MY GOD. OH MY GODDDDDDDDD

this was actually the most devastating moment of my whole being. Because now Brian KNOWS and he cant do anything to change that. "I wanna dream about something else for a change" like OH MY GOD. AND THEN THE CAROLERS AND THEYRE CAROLING AND IT ZOOMS OUT FROM THE COUCH AND OH MY GOD.

this also maybe me realize something that may sound a lil bit silly at first, but like this made me realize that once something happens, there is actually no way for you to forget it. it's going to be with you until you die. until you become angels in the night and magically disappear. and even though its over and even though the monster's gone the memories will still be embedded in your mind FOREVER and you cant do anything about it.

okay yeah the movie might be hella freaky and weird but the message is unbelievably important and VERY VERY well stated. It definitely made me realize a lot about abuse and what it puts a person through.

wow. i think imma have to sit this one out because oh my GOD.

Overall: 9/10. ik i just glazed it a lot bc the message was SO GOOD but while you're actually watching it you have to fast-forward a couple times cuz ts is actually hella freaky. Think of it like type 2 fun. while you're watching, it's hella freaky and weird, but when you finish it you're like "woah" and then you spend the rest of your day thinking about it.

So yeah. really good. definitely watch. just not with family (or even friends, unless they really really like you).

Hey Gang 10/20/25

Just checking in. I'm in the i-wanna-type-on-my-computer type of mood.

I was searching on Exit Mundi and idk what i was expecting but ts is actually pretty depressing. "Yo rlp wdym its LITERALLY about different ways that the world is going to end" shhh

I'm thinking that for my next project imma fix my Saw Yappage. It's way back from like when i was JUST starting to code and yeah I changed it a little but it still looks like i am testing things out in a book and putting them in a website.

Actually, now that i think about that, that's like my second website ive ever made ever. crazy.

Anyway, I wanna work on that. I've been trying to gather inspo but like the more i do that the more i dont wanna code bc i realize how much better everything looks from the stuff i make and i realize alongside it that i actually am not a w coder and for the most part idk what im doing.

But alas, i want that to be my next project anyway. I should put that in my todo list.

ITS (actually) OFFICIAL! 10/18/25

We're ACTUALLY on NeoCities now!!!!! It took a while but I'm so excited!!!! I've only been working on this page for like all of summer and 9 weeks into school. HOORAY!!!!!