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I Love Today 12/20/25

It's my Dad's birthday so I had a sleepover at my friend's house last night (it was hype -- we went to play broomball and watched 50 shades of grey) and I got picked up when everyone was basically asleep so the day started out great... and then we went on a bike ride which usually suck but today it was SO nice outside (like 74 degrees fahrenheit) ESPECIALLY for winter so it was sooo nice.

I also usually have this form of seasonal depression that pops up around this time... idk why but when the weather is nice like this and it feels like fall for some reason my brain makes me think about all the things I missed out on and what i could be doing now. It happened today, but for some reason it was less depressing? It was more, like, looking forward for what I could do in the future than what I'm missing out on.

I don't even know why. Maybe I'm maturing and realizing all these things that I want to do are possible now? Idk.

Anyway, I just helped my dad put the lights on our trees and ts looks super duper tuff (well not really but whatever) and the weather outside is so nice and the opposite state of my seasonal depression just made me enter a flow state.

Also my sister and my mom are cleaning out our house n now theres junk everywhere but I kinda like it? idrk why.

Also we're gonna eat at one of my dad's favorite restaurants, which just so happens to be MY fave restaurant too so im hypeeeee.

So far today has been good. idrk what stood out about it besides the first day of winter break. No homework, which is a BIG change from finals week last week... Every now and then I think to myself I should study for bio... everyone's been saying it's hard, forgetting I took it literally yesterday.

I saw this online blog a while ago, called Jojo's blog and I lowkey wanna make a blog like that one. Cuz this blog is nice but I like that one a little more. It actually reminds me of a blog, not just like somebody typing random stuff based on a topic.

I'll work on that today. Feining for some 2000's nature today... I think that'll be nice.

Ranting About my Huzz 12/13/25

I'm supposed to be studying rn but imma just rant cuz i needa get smth offa my head.

I have this huzz whose fake name alternates between "silver" and "aluminium" so imma just go w "huzz" for now.

He's blonde w light brown roots n BEAUTIFUL green eyes n is only a couple inches taller than me but im ok with that :) n also he does swim and has an upturned nose n freckles n his face and ears are always flushed :) he also smiles all the time and is not a bum and is funny and listens to Guns n Roses!!! :)))

However, he has a twin brother who's REALLY annoying and my classmates are shipping me with HIM instead :( and also huzz might be a huge nerd and says corny things sometimes but dont we all. and also im pretty sure he doesn't like me back, even though he smiles when I talk but he does that to everyone (besides his brother, respectfully), and although I get all these butterflies it's the same for everyone else, so idk.

I'm pretty sure he liked someone else :( and also he texts like a grandpa :( and also he mighttt be gay but i dont really think so considering how many gay jokes his brother makes... that would be awkward.

Idk. I like him a lot. he's really sweet. But do I really like him more than a friend???

I mean I think so????? I have tons of other guy friends but he lowkey sticks out. I like him. Well, I definitely like him, but idk if I like-like him. I probably do. Idk.

Also I dont wanna sound annoying, but I'm lowkey a loser. I don't really stick out much and there are like thirty billion trillion other girls he would probably choose before me. Idk. We talk every day though? but he does that with everyone else, too.

I hope none of what I say is true. I hope he likes me back. But idk bc there's a good chance that all I just said IS true. So idk.

I'm not much of a catch. At my age, guys r looking for boobs and I have basically none. I have a big nose n thats about it. my friends are gorgeous and they get whoever they want, but me being around them makes me feel worse about myself because compared to them im uuuuugly capital U-G-L-Y.

Idk. I hope he likes me. I hope what I just said is false.

idk.

He said he liked the way I said "nevermind, nevermind" after I make a reference to something and nobody understands. I remember that.

Crazy People 12/8/25

Watching things on crazy people online makes me realize that I'm not actually that crazy.

There was a thing I just watched where this girl with infertility found out her boyfriend's ex was having twins and literally started posting about gender reveal parties where the ex wasn't even invited, assuming that she would have the twins because they were the boyfriend's kids and she was his new girlfriend.

That shouldn't be the thing that makes me realize this, but I realize that most people's crazy isn't actually as crazy as a lot of people's. People put up with a lot of shit n it doesn't really matter how crazy you are, there will always be a couple people there for you who might not understand, but are willing to accept you.

The more I think about it the more examples I can name. The one cannibal who found his victim via Cannibal Forum, the Academy Killers or whoever they are.

Idk. Just thought of that.

Superbad.com 11/30/25

For some reason I was on superbad.com n then i was on the stars page n i found the following codes:

So yeah. I also might just put superbad.com in the rabbit holes section cuz I've lowkey explored it for a while n ive visited every single page on the website so yeah.

IT Phase 11/29/25

I alr yapped a bunch on my spacehey bulletin so imma just copy-paste here:

But basically if u didnt wanna read that, I think my IT phase is having a slight comeback after 4 years of haitus. idrk why bc it stopped being a phase for a reason.

It started back a while ago when i randomly had a fic idea for IT. i pushed it away and then like 2 days ago it came back and i went on ao3 and read all of these reddie n stenbrough fics n now im cooked.

More things about my IT phase that i feel like i should address:

• Henry Bowers (2017) is lowkey fine (GUYS HEAR ME OUT PLEASEEE)
• Stanley is the best character (rip) n the close second is Richie n then Bev Ben n Mike all share third
• Mike is also fine lowkey
• Ships: Reddie, Stenbrough, Benverly
• However there was a Mike x Stan part of my life... i dont wanna talk abt that i fear.
• And also i like Stan x Patty or whatever his wife's name is
• I had a big fat crush on Bev and i think that's gone now?
• Also Patrick is lowkey fine but not really well maybe idk

So yeah. Just thinking abt that.

Thanksgiving Aftermath 11/28/25

Happy Black Friday ig.

Anyway, Thanksgiving this year went as follows: 1) I went to my cousins/great-cousins 30 minutes away who i have seen probably twice before in my life when i was like 6 or 7 years old, and 2) hanging out for 4 hours after that at a neighborhood friend's (also my sister's best friend's) house and chatting near their fire until midnight.

It was a little different from our usual plans, since we usually just go to my grandma's house but SHE wanted us to go to our cousins' house and it was fine ig. Lowkey really awkward since they all new each other so it was basically just me and my sister. But the food was bussin so what can i say.

Also, the hangout afterwards was 100% less awkward but the family who's house we went to, the parents were friends with my parents and the youngest was friends with my sister, so i and the other brother were stuck sitting with the parents and listening to their stories. Which was fine ig but like would rather be on Roblox.

Anyway, overall this Thanksgiving wasn't all that bad! I thought my cousins were gonna be trumpies but they weren't I don't think so yay!

But yeah. Overall pretty okay Thanksgiving. However, I am writing this drinking tea because my stomach is about to pop. Def worth it tho.

HPI Progress 2 + just ranting 11/26/25

Hello Poison Ivy is up! It's in the "other projects" page but here's the link to it too: https://rats-are-pretty-coolio.neocities.org/hellopoisonivy. you should visit it! tons of fun kind of cuz im not done with it yet.

I realize that I blogged on HPI without blogging here too and I realize that HPI is lowkey really tuff. Its annoying that I have to edit it so much cuz like for the best rabbit webpage i can just type some things and tadaa but for HPI i have to spin the spinner wheel for every paragraph i write and its sooo annoying lowkey.

But there's also a lot of opportunity, ig. I feel like I can put anything anywhere and it'll sorta be in place.

Anyway. I'm stuck between blogging via HPI, here, or my SpaceHey blog. I'll focus on this one first, to describe how my days' are going to a wall ig, but then my SpaceHey one for like topics that I want answers from or people to see. And then if I'll finish HPI maybe I'll blog there too idk.

Anyway, tomorrow's Thanksgiving!!! Honestly idrc about thanksgiving much but i LOVE the food. but this year we're going to my second-cousins (or smth i cant remember) house and they're all trumpies and i know NONE of them so idk how this is gonna turn out.

Oh well. Wish me luck!!!

Hello Poison Ivy progress 11/9/25

If you haven't yet visited my "Other Projects" page then go do that but basically there's a project im in the works of rn called Hello Poison Ivy. This is what it looks like so far. I'm just at a loss for what I should add.

Well, this is what I do know:

• More random GIFs
• More font sizes/colors
• More ugly fonts
• More ugly backgrounds
• More random topics

And so on and so forth. But before I do any of that I have to work on what you look at when you click the link, which should be the main thing you look at when you log on. This is very important, since it sets the tone for the rest of the website, so it has to be crazier and weirder than the rest of it.

Mysterious Skin (2004) 11/4/25

I realize i haven't blogged on this this like ever because for the most part I only blog on my spacehey. but i decided to blog today because I watched Mysterious Skin this morning and yall can NOT believe the chokehold that the ending scene has on me.

I don't wanna be a spoiler in case yall wanna watch it but the last scene the 2 characters finally find each other and Neil shares the story and then the VERY END when the carolers are carolling and it zooms out on the couch and Neil was voicing over yall imma just quote it yall oh my GOD.

I wanted to tell Brian it was over now and everything would be okay. But that was a lie... I wish there was some way for us to go back and undo the past. But there wasn't. There was nothing we could do. So I just stayed silent and trying to telepathically communicate... how sorry I was about what had happened. And I thought of all the grief and sadness... and fucked up suffering in the world... and it made me want to escape. I wished with all my heart that we could just... leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically... disappear.

yall OH MY GOD. OH MY GODDDDDDDDD

this was actually the most devastating moment of my whole being. Because now Brian KNOWS and he cant do anything to change that. "I wanna dream about something else for a change" like OH MY GOD. AND THEN THE CAROLERS AND THEYRE CAROLING AND IT ZOOMS OUT FROM THE COUCH AND OH MY GOD.

this also maybe me realize something that may sound a lil bit silly at first, but like this made me realize that once something happens, there is actually no way for you to forget it. it's going to be with you until you die. until you become angels in the night and magically disappear. and even though its over and even though the monster's gone the memories will still be embedded in your mind FOREVER and you cant do anything about it.

okay yeah the movie might be hella freaky and weird but the message is unbelievably important and VERY VERY well stated. It definitely made me realize a lot about abuse and what it puts a person through.

wow. i think imma have to sit this one out because oh my GOD.

Overall: 9/10. ik i just glazed it a lot bc the message was SO GOOD but while you're actually watching it you have to fast-forward a couple times cuz ts is actually hella freaky. Think of it like type 2 fun. while you're watching, it's hella freaky and weird, but when you finish it you're like "woah" and then you spend the rest of your day thinking about it.

So yeah. really good. definitely watch. just not with family (or even friends, unless they really really like you).

Hey Gang 10/20/25

Just checking in. I'm in the i-wanna-type-on-my-computer type of mood.

I was searching on Exit Mundi and idk what i was expecting but ts is actually pretty depressing. "Yo rlp wdym its LITERALLY about different ways that the world is going to end" shhh

I'm thinking that for my next project imma fix my Saw Yappage. It's way back from like when i was JUST starting to code and yeah I changed it a little but it still looks like i am testing things out in a book and putting them in a website.

Actually, now that i think about that, that's like my second website ive ever made ever. crazy.

Anyway, I wanna work on that. I've been trying to gather inspo but like the more i do that the more i dont wanna code bc i realize how much better everything looks from the stuff i make and i realize alongside it that i actually am not a w coder and for the most part idk what im doing.

But alas, i want that to be my next project anyway. I should put that in my todo list.

ITS (actually) OFFICIAL! 10/18/25

We're ACTUALLY on NeoCities now!!!!! It took a while but I'm so excited!!!! I've only been working on this page for like all of summer and 9 weeks into school. HOORAY!!!!!

ITS OFFICIAL! 10/10/25

We're officially on Neocities!!! I finished everything in the last three days and when it finally updates ill find peace again!

That being said, I have a lot more work to do. But this is def a big step forwards.

First Blog! 10/9/25

Hey gang this is my blog. Pretty sick. Pretty skibidi.

Idk. Nothing really happened today. I had lacrosse. yay.

idk. glad I got ts done tho.

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